Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Feeling lucky
Many things have been happening in my life currently.
Many happy and unhappy things happening at the very same time.
Sometimes i wonder why can't i get to choose what kind of parents do i want??
Sometimes i rather i come a normal family and not a well to do family.
Rich people are all proud people!
What does the word FAMILY means to most people out there?
It's been a long time since i really understand the real meaning of family.
My family is very complicated!
My sister lives in her own room and she gets whatever she wants.
My brother also lives in his own room and get whatever he wants.
They order room service to their room for breakfast,lunch and dinner.
They only get out of the room when they are going out.
My sister spent money like nobody business es though money drop out from the sky above.
My parents keep asking me to take money home and not to spent so much money.
My parents keep telling me they are poor and they need a lot of money.
But behind my back they can afford to spent money on my sister like money is easily earn.
Everyone at home is really fake.
All my parents ever tells me is " I don't have any heart for this FAMILY ! "
But why should i have any heart for these FAMILY ????
what have they done for me for the past few years??
As parents how did they treat me?? ( Don't ask me not to compare because life is never fair ! )
YES!! I totally agree that life is never fair! BUT i am human too...
Don't always expect me to treat as though nothing has ever happen.
Don't always expect me to act as though i don't know what you guys have done behind my back.
Seriously I'm not that stupid! I just wanna act blur and treat as though nothing ever happen.
This way at least everyone at home can have a little peace!
Sometime i just wanna run. I just wanna run away and never come back.
Leave Singapore and never come back again.
I never wanna come back to this place call HOME!
No matter what i have done, i don't deserve to be treated in this way.
If grandmother is still around, i will at least have someone to turn too!
Sometimes i just miss my grandmother so much...
I feel like I'm all alone right now!
I can't do anything but to control and swallow everything down.
I really hate thing kind of feelings!
I seriously wanna have a family of my own.
I wanna start a family of my own.
MY OWN FAMILY!
With someone i love and with someone who really cares and love me!
I MISS MY GRANDMOTHER!
9:50 PM
