Thursday, January 14, 2010
Confused
What is love ?
How do you know if you're really in love?
How important is that "person" to you ?
Will he ever give up everything because of you?
Does he always place you in 1st place?
I'm kind of lost in words right now,i dun even know how to explain.
Nothing seems to be right now a days!
Everything that I'm doing and saying seems to be wrong.
Am i really that important to him?
( Sometimes i really dun know how to answer myself )
Love is simple and sweet.
It should not be complicated and disappointing.
I dun like the feeling of cheating myself.
I cannot always live in a world of fantasy and dreams.
I have to wake up 1day sooner or later.....
When do you know if the person is treating you seriously?
How important are you in your boyfriend's heart?
Does he always put you in 1st place?
will he give up everything for you just because you dun like it?
There is so many questions in my mind.
BUT all the answers are all not to my liking at all.
I'm telling myself that everything is fine and everything will go very smoothly.
But every time when somethings goes wrong, I'll just lose faith and confidences in myself.
Everything seems fine on the outside BUT is everything really fine in the inside??
Promises are meant to be kept and not broken.
What is the point of promising someone something when you're going to break it.
Why does human have to face so many different kinds of feelings?
Disappointed, Upset, Unhappy, Confused, Angry, Jealous, Moody and etc .....
Disappointed when promises are broken.
Upset when he forget about our breakfast date.
Unhappy that he raise his voice at me.
Confused about his feelings towards me.
Angry when he just doesn't understand how i feel.
Jealous when he is always close with someone else.
Moody when he is not around to face my problems with me.
I hate all this kind of feelings that I'm having right now.
Why does human only remember the bad BUT not the good???
This is something he always tells me.
Till today i still have no answer to that question.
Is love really that strong?
Sometimes i just wanna leave and go somewhere really far away.
Away from all my troubles and worries.
Away from everything that i want to run away from.
Seems like no one really understand how i feel and what I'm thinking about.
Am i really that hard to understand ??
Am i really that complicated ???
What should i do right now ?????
I need air to breath, i need sun light to grow, i need energy to move on.
Where did all the promises gone too ??
why is things so different now ??
Am i the one with all the problems ??
My mind is blank and I'm so confused.
Does he really love me that much?? am i really that important to him ??
Will he change his mind for me ??? Can i be the person to change him ??
Am i really that different to him ??
What should i do right now ???
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