Wednesday, April 7, 2010
So Near Yet So Far!
In less than a month Jeffrey is going to Taiwan for training.
Jeffrey is going to be away for about a month and I'm going to be all alone.
Time together seems to be getting lesser and lesser.
Topics between us seems to be shorter and shorter.
Jeffrey is always busy with his stuff in camp!
Outfield,Training,Briefing and etc....
Soon he is going to be so far away from me....
No more text messages and phone calls in the month of MAY!
Jessmin is going to be all lonely and bored.
Everyone around me is either busy with their work or their own love life...
Everyone has their own things to do and no longer have time to meet up and catch up like in the old days.
Irene is far away in HongKong. Gina is always working and schooling. Jizhong is either in camp or in class. Debbie is either at home or with her boyfriend.
Kristine is either busy with work or with her boyfriend.
Our time doesn't seems to match each other at all.
We are always free at different time!
Jeffrey and I has only been together for 5 months and he is going away for a whole month. I wonder how are we going to be like when he is back from Taiwan.
I don't even dare to go send him off at the airport on the 5Th next month.
I'm so afraid i might cry and lost control of myself.
I hate this kind of feelings, the feeling of someone leaving you for somewhere far far away.
A month is not very long but a month is not very short as well.
Many things can happen in a month time and everything maybe very different when he is back from Taiwan.
Now that he is in Singapore we already seem so far, i seriously can't imagine what is going to happen when he is away in Taiwan.
Will we be strangers when he is back??
Will everything be very different when he is back??
Will our relationship still be as close as before when he is back?
will things change during this period of time?
I don't know what to do and i can't stop my mind from thinking about all this possibilities.
Many things can happen in a month, Nothing Will always stay the same!
As the days get closer and closer the harder and harder i can get to sleep.
As the days get closer and closer the more my tears start to roll.
As the days get closer and closer the more my heart aches.
As the days get closer and closer I feel really really sick!
I can't stop my mind from thinking about all this things.
I can't stop my imagination from running wild.
I can't stop myself from having such uneasy feelings.
I no longer have heart to work. I at work yet my soul and mind is always somewhere else.
I can't tell HIM about all this cause he will never understand how i feel and all he knows is me being to dependent on him.
I hate quarrels, I hate fights between us!
Someone please tell me what should i do?
someone please help me in someway or another!
3:44 PM
