Tuesday, January 25, 2011
A brand new year and A brand new start =)))
I haven had time to blog for a very long time, many things have changed in my life.
I can't imagine that I'm actually having a baby soon.
I'm four months plus pregnant already =)))
My precious baby would be arriving in end of end.
I seriously can't imagine that I've actually moved out and started a family of my own, something that I've dreamt for a long time.
Everything seems to be very different ever since i moved out from HOME =((
( Not really how i imagine it would be )
I have to start learning how to do house chores like, washing the clothes, vacuum the floor , mopping the floor, clean up the room, change bed sheets, wash my own dishes after every meal, wash my own clothes etc ....
( All these which i do not need to do at home )
I finally understand why people always say, it's always easy to date a person but when you really start living with that person everything including the feelings for each would be very different.
There have been many disagreements and arguments between Jeffrey and I, some which i really don't understand why either.
My temper is getting from bad to worst and my body just seems very wrong, as though it doesn't belong to me anymore.
As my stomach gets bigger and bigger i start to be really afraid that i might never be slim again.
My relationship with my family is getting from bad to worst ever since i had this baby, My parents just can't accept that fact that I'm pregnant at such a young age with no future and no career. Ever since the day i moved out of the house, they have never contacted me at all.
( Now a days, I really start to miss HOME, I miss my dad and my brother, I kind of miss the life i use to live in the past )
I recently just went to see my doctor and she said that my baby is very healthy and is growing very normally. I also took my first blood test and baby is normal as well.
I'm really thankful that my baby is healthy and normal =)))
Now that I'm a mother myself then i really start to understand the feeling of carry a baby for 9 months is really not that simple.
Sometimes i really thought of giving up and go back to the kind of life I used to live but i know that can never be possible anymore.
Jeffrey can really be very supportive at times but he can really be a pain in the ass too. Sometimes he just drives me nuts and i just feel like killing him in his sleep =))) I know he is trying his very best to be a good husband and a great daddy to be and it's really not easy as the both of us are still pretty young.
I spent most of my time right now thinking what i want in my life right now, whether the choice i made was right ?? whether am i really ready to be a mother and whether can i really settle down that young.
(I'm really scared most of the nights, I can neither sleep nor do anything at all.)
Jeffrey and I have been quarrelling over what to name our baby but we still can't seems to agree on a name yet.
I'm really thankful that i have really great friends around me during this period of time when i need support and help.
Only at times like that then you'll start to notice who your true friends are =)))
I seriously can't wait for baby to arrive into this world, I really can't wait to hug him/her and hold him/her tightly in my arms. Most importantly i want this whole pregnancy thing to be over so that i can gain my freedom back again.
Special thanks to : Kristine, Gina, Jizhong, Debbie, Kazuno, Lynn, Victor, Tzewei, Vicky Tan, Sheena gow and all my beloved cousins =))
( without you guys i seriously do not know what would happen to me, thanks for all the support given )
MUMMY LOVES BABY =)))
9:06 PM
